We made it!!

We made it to our first goal, 30 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!! We went out to eat to applebees tonight. We all shared the best dessert I have ever had in my life. Its new to Applebees. Its a warm chocolate chip cookie, with a sea of chocolate syurp, with two scoops of ice cream, four piles of whipped cream and oreo cookies all crushed on top and all over!! It was so good!! Elaine was dancing in her seat when she was eating it. IT was a great way to celebrate!!

Orchard Grove Community Church

I had a doctor appointment today. So far things are still looking ok. I made it to 30 weeks!! Josh is taking me out to dinner this week for that accomplishment!!! My blood pressure was ok, I had labs repeated and have to do another 24 urine for my thursday appointment. I do how ever have a Hernia around my belly button. I noticed it this past weekend when i would sneeze, or cough or laugh hard. My belly seemed to hurt really bad, I thought it was nothing until I watched my belly and my middle section would shoot straight out and become more painful. So I asked today if this was normal, she said NO. Hopefully she said she can fix it while I have my C-section other wise I will have to come back in for another surgery. Dr. Also said that if it becomes really painful i have to just lay down and push it back it. I had to do that tonight, talk about gross!!!

This past sunday we decided to go visit a church I found online while searching for a MOPS group to attend. The church is in walled lake and its called Orchard Grove Community Church. It is a very LARGE at least 1,000 people at the 9:30 service. It was a Journey on major steroids. I think that is why we liked it so much. Even though it was big it still had that feeling we had at the Journey. The pastor was wearing Jeans YES!! The band was awsome and one thing that I think bothered josh a little was their was alot of clapping and praise Jesus after songs.I grew up with that so it did not bother me but i think he was taken a little back by that. Elaine had a huge room to play in 2-3 year olds. I actually call it a gymnasium It was so big, and there was a mirror on the other wall that during the service you could go watch your kid with out them seeing you. NICE feature. The serise that they started their was Looking up when things look down. How apropriate. The sermon was taking from John 15:1-5,8 The pastor talked about that when you are going through some tough times remember that God is prunning you to do better things. this can mean a job situation, moving, family stuff etc.. not just losing your job which is what most people think of when hearing the word cutting back. The main objective was to Bear fruit, He talked about us being connected to the Vine and that God wants us to bear fruit,( LOVE AND JOY) he challenged us to think about what kind of fruit we bear on the vine. Are we allowing God to do all he wants to do, or do we question his every move or "prunning Tacktic" He talked about prunning can sometimes cause pain, confussion,frustration and so on, God prunes us for a greater preparation, he see something in us we dont at the time and the reason we are going through what ever it is, its because God sees the potential. This message is just a nut shell and pieces of what I wrote down, but for me it ment alot. I hated being and still dont like having been torn apart from my family and friends( I have talked about this with josh but i wont speak on his behalf) anyway, I have felt like everything was taken out from under me. not just with the move but with having kids and life. I was almost teary eyed during the service because God really does care for me and what is going on. He knows why and what he is doing. He is preparing us for something better and maybe not just on a spiritual level but other levels in life as well. We may not have liked the move but we also felt the tug to need to go, and God is taking care of us through out our stay in east side, as well as with this pregnancy and Jacob. I plan on going again next sunday if Im able. I really enjoyed the service and I found myself thinking about it again today. Which to be honest I dont always do after a sunday passes. Im also going to plan on attending the MOPS group that meets there in two weeks.

well, sorry this was so long winded but i felt like writing it down while stuff was fresh in my mind. I Hope this finds everyone doing well. Its freezing cold here and Josh just came home from a meeting and said we got about an inch of snow. I looked outside and sure enough we did!!

Fine Today

This morning I had a Doctor appointment. My blood pressure was ok 132/78 and i have gained four pounds in six days. I still have a headache but im feeling a little better. I have been resting at home and we took a long nap today. Im still not out of the woods, but each day that passes is good. I go back to the doctor on monday and then Thursday again, I will go every week on these two days. I decided that If I make it through monday that we will celebrate by going out to eat!! and get dessert!! I will be 30 weeks on Monday, so making anytime past that is wonderful to me!! I told Josh we had to celebrate some how!!

well other than updates things are pretty boring here. Lainey loves it that im home, we spend our days right now watching T.V. and playing with playdough, coloring, reading and i do all this sitting on the couch or at the table. Nothing to exciting. She wont know what to do when we can get back to normal, going places and getting outside more. I wont know what to do either.


I posted some pictures from the other day, Elaine got the blood pressure cuff and stethascope and put it on pooh bear, and said DADDY, she always sees daddy do that to me. Then she tried to chase norman down and do it to him too.. that did not fly so well.

Home again for now

I was able to come home yesterday. Thanks to many answered prayers and with those I had no real diagnosis so for insurance reasons I was not allowed to stay at hospital. I have to be on bed rest at home, no going out shopping or running around, only to Doctor appointments. Josh gets to do Laundry and Sunday he is going to learn how to make casserols!! and we will freeze them for dinners, because im not suppose to be on my feet that long. My Mother in Law just left this afternoon, she has been so helpful holding down the fort while i was gone. She cleaned the house and even organized cupboards and closets. Thank you so much MOM!

I got home around 12 yesterday. Had a quick lunch and went to my room and slept for almost 4 hours. My headache is almost gone, Im on Prednizone(sp) for a few days to see if it helps. I still dont feel the greatest but its not getting worse. Im just thankful to come home for a while. I have been really down lately and feeling depressed, but as i look back over the last week and all that has happened I now realize that It was all the prayers from people we knew and some I dont even know at all. First was with the pipe that burst in the house. We were told that we would be without laundry for a few weeks and that it would take a while to get it all fixed. Well yesterday guys came to check on how the drying was going.. and it was dry! so they hooked up washer and dryer again!! Thanks for that!! we still have a mess in back room but we can do our laundry. The next prayer that was answered was with me. I was really sick when I went into the hospital Friday, and very scared. I really thought this was it. They had drawn my blood. ( I learned about this story from my doctor whom came to talk with me saturday morning, while i cried and cried she just sat with me on the bed.) Dr. Harris shared with me her concern for my health and Jacobs. She told me the reason I could not eat anything and that she kept me in Labor and Delivery was because she honestly thought that she was going to deliver me. My first set of blood work came back with very elevated Liver Enzymes which means that preclampsia is getting into high gear. She said she decided to wait and do one more draw, when that came back it was completly back to normal. She told me she has never seen that happen before, it always goes up.. never back down.... I just smiled a midst my tears because I knew what had happened. So thank you to everyone for praying so hard because of that I get to be home a while longer and Jacob gets to grow some more.

I still have to take blood pressures at home,and weigh my self. I go back to doctor tommorow. with the understanding that if i progess with any other symptoms or have protein in my urine that I will be spending more time in hospital. We are just trying to make it to at least 34 weeks. But I know that it can happen anytime.


Thanks again to everyone for praying, and to my family for helping us out, it has been wonderful.

family update

Hello to everyone from room 307 at St. Johns Providence Hospital Southfield. I have access today to the computer for afew hours, in bed. I was admitted friday night with pre-clampsia symptoms. Currenlty i have some visual disturbances, seeing spots, pain in my left side and a persistant headache( which i have had for about a week) I have had lots of lab work and Im on my second 24 urine to test for protien. So far im stable, i can take a shower and go to the bathroom and then its back in bed. I cannot go for walks or any physical activity. My Labs have shown an increase in myliver enzymes but as of late seem to have come down(thanks for prayer) Today my white blood count is high and they are repeating labs every 12 hours. Today I have had some swelling,minor so far. My headache is still there, its under some control with Fiorecet(sp?) I can tell its there and dont really like to have to blinds open or lights on for long. My doctor has said that at any time my symptoms or 24 urine come back high that we will deliver. We would like to get into the 30 week mark if possible. She is not confident of this but its our goal, so that is why its strick bed rest. The best case scenario would be after a few weeks if im ok that i could possible go home on strict bedrest. This to is not what the doc thinks will happen. My body is up to something and its a matter of time. I have a couple different ultrasounds tommorow morning,as well as 2 times a day on the fetal monitor.

I have not been handling this the best, im scared,anxious, deppressed and not in the best mood. I know why i need tobe here, and what is best for Jacob but its alot easier said than done to relax and not be upset. I feel guilt that my body cannot do what it was made to do and angry. Ioften wake at night to memories of seeing Elaine all hooked up and the shame i felt because I was feeling better and she had to suffer. I will admit i have cried more these last few days than i have in over a year. I want things to be ok and jacob to be ok. After going through it once you would think I would be pre-pared, and i though that, but im not. Im digging deep for strength and find my self in prayer alot, actually sometimes angry conversation with him. I ask that you pray for me to let go and trust people, which i dont come by naturally. I need to trust that my family will be taken care of. and trust in staff at hospital as they know what is best. I really really miss Elaine and being with Josh. I feel like im missing out on a big part of Elaines life, esspecially scince i will be here a while. I get choked up thinking about it. I also miss Josh, I know that its not been easy for him and i love him so much for all his hard work. Please pray for him to have strength to get through work, home stuff and being here with me. If i did not have him I dont know what i would do. he has delt with alot these past few days... and i know its not easy.

I would like to thank my In-laws for all their help and for staying with Elaine, my sister and brother-in-law for staying this weekend, and to my parents for their help. And to everyone for prayers and support.

josh and I will try to keep the blog updated so that people can know what is going on.

Could the day get any worse...

So this morning I woke up to Josh whispering in my ear that there was no hot water... and then he left. THEN.... he came back again with out his pants and socks on?????? and said we have a problem. So i got up and went to find towels, and water eveywhere in the kitcken and back laundry room.. A pipe had burst, Josh was able to get water off before it got to the rest of the house. Well, he cleaned up a bit and left for work. I had a 32 oz jug of water in fridge in which Elaine and I had watery oatmeal and cleaned up with after heating the rest. I was about to start to head out for my Check-up at the doc,and I also had to bring back my 24 urine. And the doc office called, The Doctor was at a delivery. I had to go anyway because I had to turn in the 24 urine, and I have a bad headache again, not feeling well. Then Josh calls to tell me that someone will be at the house in half hour. So he came home while i went to the doc. Of course my blood pressure was up, and so they drew some blood and paged the doctor. SHe of course wants me to come right into Land D. What the heck?? How do i do that with a kid at home, a broken pipe, and a frantic husband,not to metion myself. I simply and calmly said NO. I told the nurse that I have no intention of spending the weekend in hospital for one high blood pressure. I said for them to call me when my protien levels come back, and then i would come in if needed. Yes I have a headache, and dont feel well, but ive been like that all week. She said she would see what she could do. ( ill keep you posted on that whole thing)

So... I get home to two men inthe house the plumber and a contractor. Wet towels and rugs piled on the kitchen floor. Water is still off until the soddered pipe dries. We cannot use the laundry until minium Monday( I knew I should have done it yesterday) and the whole wall on other side of kitchen has to be torn out and a cleaning service is comming soon to set up a bunch of fans and a humidifer for the whole weekend, they will be back every day this weekend. We have to have a new wall, they are hoping not to have to tear out part of kitchen wall. So much for resting today... people will be in and out all afternoon. It will be into next week before everything is taken care of.

Im just praying that nothing eles happens today.. i dont know if i can handle it. my house is a mess, and i cannot clean it,there is sopping wet stuff on the floor, I dont feel good and just want to do nothing, and I feel terrible for Josh who has to deal with all this stuff too. Im finding it really hard to trust God or find an humor or good in this day.(other than the bright sun is out, its nice to see that) We have had nothing but problems with this house scince we moved it two months ago. We had pipes back up, toilets break open,and now this... in less than two months. Josh called our relator today to tell her what has happened and see what we can do. Im really trying to be brave and make it through the weekend.
sorry this is such a negative post, but i have no place eles to vent and i feel better now that i did. thanks to everyone for listening.

Life with the Troast Family

Hello Everyone,
well our weekend was not as relaxing as planned. We went home to have a family christmas and visit with joshs brother and sister in-law from Arizona and their precious Mieke. she is almost three months old. We met her for the first time this week. Elaine loved her new cousin, and also learned this weekend what babys drink..."boobie Juice" Friday night turned on us though.... I have not been feeling well for about a week or so. Friday night i suddenly did not feel good at all so i asked josh to take my blood pressure because something did not feel right. It was 160/88 not good. My reflexed were a little hyperactive and i was dizzy and throwing up. We went into Triage at Mercy Special Delivery. They were concerned enough with preclampsia symptoms that they started me on Magnesium sulfate and shipped me off to spectrum. I stayed there for two days. this improved from friday and the doctor discharged me sunday night. I still dont feel great andhave a headache with pressure behind my eye. The specialist at spectrum basicly wrote us off because my blood work did not show anything. I do however have a protein level of 231( once you hit 300 then there are problems) so im safe with that for now. I was thankful we did not have to deliver and thankful i could go home. But i do know that I still dont feel right.

I had a doctor appoint today in Farmington Hills where the doctor we see was more concerned and understanding about it. Although i dont have pre-clampsia yet, she says it can happen any minute. She is going to be seeing me two times a week, and do a 24 urine test every week as well. She says that no one knows my body like myself so she is taking this seriously. I go weds morning for a ultrasound, and back again friday for a check up and bring in my 24 urine. She is running it stat so friday night she said if it comes back abnormal again she will prob put me back in the hospital to be monitored and then possible delivery. Im currently 28 weeks. We have also discussed that if things dont go well that this will probably be our last pregnancy that we will be able to have. Josh and I have talked about this but will probably wait until the emotional ride of having Jacob settles down. I know I cannot physically go through this again, and the thought of putting another human being at risk as well breaks my heart. I have always dreamed of a big family, but God must have other plans. This how ever does not take the sad feelings, i carry daily ,away from me. I must admit that i always knew there was a possiblilty of something happening again but until it does it does not sink in. it really is a struggle to not just sit here and cry all day. I also try to remind my self constantly that these two precious babies I have are really not mine but Gods and when i cannot stop crying or agonizing I remember to think on that. God really does have a plan in the midst of all this. It really is easier said than done to trust God in all areas. Thankfully Elaine keeps be busy and reminds me of how wonderful life is. I love her so much!! Im also very greatfull for my family and supportive friends who have been praying hard for us. It is definitly felt by josh and I. I also want to thank my wonderful husband. Josh you have been very paitent and loving through out this. I know its hard on you too. (josh stays by my side and has been very comforting and supportive) I LOVE YOU very much.

I will post updates on here as well as some on facebook. Its just easier to vent and share my feelings on the blog.

p.s. Im also working on getting wedding pictures from lisa and Jons wedding. We forgot our camera this weekend so I also have to wait for pictures from Laineys Chirstmas with the Troast and her new cousin.

We Need Your Prayers

Our family would like your help in keeping us in your prayers. I went to the doctor today and im starting to trend the way i did with elaine, ( all the preclampsia stuff) My doctor feels that i wont make it past 34 weeks. more like 32-33 she said if i went more the 34 weeks I would be lucky. I dont have protein but im starting to not feel good and starting to gain water weight. im too take it easy and try to bake a little longer. My doctor here in muskegon gave me a big hug today and told me to let her know how things go. ( I have a doctor now in Southfield i will be seeing and will probably deliver at Providence Hospital in southfield) They have a level three NICU its smaller than grand rapids but just as good. I have to weigh my self daily and check blood pressure. And be seen by the doctor every week now. my doctor in southfield also checks blood work every time i come. I will keep people posted as i will have to stay home more now.